It’s hard to show people who I really am and often times I don’t know who that is either. My entire life has been spent sheltered from the real world, while suffering from crippling anxiety. Until recently, I have spent my life in a safety bubble that I was too terrified to leave. I have always had a huge curiosity of the world, but until recently, never wanted to make that leap to discover it.
As the years pass on by, I realize that I won’t be young forever. I’m going to turn 24 this year, and my life isn’t much different than when I was in high school. I don’t want my life to stay ordinary forever, and I don’t want my anxiety to control my life any longer.
I love knowing about the world, and I want to do more than just have knowledge of it. I want to live and experience every aspect of it that is humanly possible. I want to grow with each adventure I have, and be comfortable with who I grow in to. I don’t want to spend my entire life questioning who I am and what I could become. I don’t want to give into my fears any longer. I’m going to stop robbing myself of the person I could become and actually be that person.
It’s so close to happening, I can already feel it. In the past few months I’ve taken small steps to better my life, and some pretty great changes have already emerged from them. I’m not really sure where I was going with this blog, but I just felt the need to say all of this.